Last week my mom finally came to visit!!! It was a glorious long weekend, and felt halfway normal aside from sitting in the parking lot with our masks on while we waited for her rapid Covid test results. Once time has passed and no faint line appeared I could finally take a deep breath and relax and just enjoy her company. My daughter was so excited to see her at pick up from daycare she ran right up to my mom instead of her usual shy act. The next morning we went to a pumpkin patch with the expectation of buying the big pumpkins, which of course turned into about a dozen small to medium pumpkins to decorate our front step and our dining table. We had a great weekend with my mom plus my in-laws, lots of time outside, a trip to our favorite park, a birthday celebration, a few meltdowns (mostly the three year old, one of my own). My sister in law and her family ended up staying home, mostly out of concern for the non-Covid but still miserable daycare germs they’re still battling every other week. All in all, it was an excellent weekend.
October 27, 2021
How has the coronavirus affected my closest relationships? I can't even begin to answer this fully. I miss my mother, desperately. She is alive and well and only two hours but a world away. I miss her voice, I miss the gentle way she brushes my daughter's hair. Their banter back and forth heard through the wall, two melodic voices in different registers, a tinkling brook of dialogue. I miss taking walks with her, riding the train on a Saturday morning to visit her, the way she always makes sure to have good coffee in the house when I visit. Her shabby apartment where she's lived for twenty years, the wiggly kitchen table, the knick knacks, the too-warm bathroom and the picture window above the kitchen sink. Her silly little Honda Fit that rattles around back roads of Vermont when she drives to swimming holes and places to walk. How she will talk to anyone kindly, any person in any context for any reason. How she never cuts corners, almost to a maddening degree, never does a shitty job with anything, never treats anyone as an afterthought. How she writes the best letters and cards and makes the best Valentines. How she believes in things. How she loves lavender and birdsong. How she misses the sea.
March 10, 2021