This picture of a scale in a hardware store where I bought fresh peanuts is an example of comfort food and also a reminder of Peanuts the Charles Schulz cartoons. I find that I am proactive to make new connections in fields of interest that intrigue me. I bought the peanuts as I waited to get into an exhibit of Techspressionism which is artwork created digitally or using technology. It was a great exhibit I reconnected to the woman who did a seminar many years ago at Guild Hall in East Hampton about software to create digital art. I call my works digital abstract expressionism. I actually sold an art work at Guild Hall in a member exhibition. Only 19 works sold out of 400 displayed. The curator of the exhibit on Saturday April 23 was also a new connection. So I guess I manage to make new connections which compensates for not staying in touch with old friends.
April 30, 2022
"... Because of covid, everything is harder. Duh. But it is much harder than I thought it would be when I flew home from college in the middle of March. At the end of April, my dad was hit by a car while riding his bicycle. He has been in the hospital and rehab ever since. ... I cannot see him in person because of restrictions upon visiting due to covid, and because of how traumatic the injury was, talking to him over facetime is difficult. ... What makes this even harder is that my younger brother has developmental and speech delays, along with autism and bipolar syndrome ... And now I fear waking up everyday because of him. ... my sisters and I have to watch him often, and that is incredibly draining mentally, emotionally, and physically. ... there are physical altercations that occur almost every time we watch him. I really miss my dad. ... I miss my friends at school. I miss my boyfriend. I miss the luxury and privilege I had of escaping this household whenever I was at school a thousand miles away. ... yet I am still privileged in my white body. And I will continue to fight in anyway possible to unfuck it all, even if these terrible pains tear apart my mind each day. Because I hate them! The politicians, the police, the institutions. And covid has only intensified these egregious and sinful things! ..."
June 29, 2020