I escaped this week and it felt great. This picture is only about 30 minutes of relaxation while watching children, but still, to be out of the house, in nature, with family, it was amazing! I broke all the rules - hugs, snuggles with a baby who is passed from person to person and slobbers over everyone, going into houses, eating together, etc. Frankly, I don't care. Right now at least. I hope and pray that I am able to stay healthy and that all of my family is too. It was risky but necessary - my mother had emergency surgery and I needed to be there. Thank God, she is healing and fine. And I would do it again to be there for her. I had missed her so much. Going there felt great, and coming home again felt much better. I don't feel as trapped, as desperate. And when I do start to go stir crazy again, now I have this beautiful picture to remind me that there is still nature and family not too far away.
August 11, 2020
I am thrilled to proclaim that I am now fully vaxxed! While it does feel like a victory and a vast relief, I do worry about my hesitation to full re-integrate into life. I still keep a solid 6 feet between myself an the neighbors who pop by to chat outside. And I felt very twitchy the other day at an outdoor crafts festival, when a group of people came to close to me. I question if I have lost my sense of reality. Rationally, I know I am protected. But a part of me flinches and balks and still wants to lay low, conducting work business via Zoom, keeping a low at-home profile. Often, I wonder how many others are experiencing this?
May 5, 2021