I looked forward for the second vaccine. Maybe because it gave me something to look forward to. I counted the days between the first and the second shots, and read about the increased protection that each day brings. Now that I got it, there’s nothing to look for. Again. All days are the same. Still in lockdown, we don’t really see the end of it. The infection numbers in Israel are increasing although about 20% of the population already received the second shot. My daughters are still underemployed and edgy. My partner still deppressed. I am still terribly lonely. This is the second shot deppression: understanding that it doen’t bring any instant cure, that the way out is not near. In the picture: people waiting in line for the first vaccine in Rabin Square.
February 5, 2021
Most of my friends have gotten the vaccines, and keep asking me if I got mine. I am avoiding making an appointment, mainly because I am afraid of what might happen to me. I live alone, and worry that I wouldn't be able to get help. Also, I feel like the ones who have gotten vaccinated don't want to be around me, and I don't feel safe being around anyone. I just feel torn about what is the right thing to do - not sure if I can trust what the government is telling us.
May 10, 2021