I feel like this whole pandemic has been like this melting snowman. Pieces of me are all over, nothing is where it belongs. I am trying to see the beauty in the world but sometimes things just get in the way, like the overgrown stick which is taking over the top of the snowman. Good things are happening in my life, my daughter is getting married, my older daughter had a new baby this past August, yet the pandemic is blocking my vision. I feel like my priorities are mixed up, sometimes the world is not as bright as it seems. The clouds are hiding the sun and the air is polluted with germs. The corona virus is still with us, people are still masked up and afraid to socialize.
March 14, 2021
Most of my friends have gotten the vaccines, and keep asking me if I got mine. I am avoiding making an appointment, mainly because I am afraid of what might happen to me. I live alone, and worry that I wouldn't be able to get help. Also, I feel like the ones who have gotten vaccinated don't want to be around me, and I don't feel safe being around anyone. I just feel torn about what is the right thing to do - not sure if I can trust what the government is telling us.
May 10, 2021