4/22/21 This is how I've felt, for way too long: Bricked in, blocked in, locked away by more obligations than I can handle, so much so that I can't move, can't free myself, can't even see spring. This was already my work situation -- and since work is so much a part of my life, my life situation -- pre-COVID, but now in the past year it's become just overwhelming. Untenable. Need somehow to tear away the dead vines, unbrick the door of creativity, let spring in.
April 6, 2023
Before the pandemic, I was preparing to make a career jump. Now.... I'm just grateful for the job I have, the one that kept me insured even while I was furloughed, helped me navigate the unemployment system, invested the dollars in making the workplace as safe as possible. It's still not the job I went to college for, and I hate that my expectations have been so lowered. But there's something to be said for a steady source of above minimum wage income and a safe workplace for a female pushing 60 in the middle of a global pandemic. I feel bad for the younger ones who are having to lower their career expectations, though
June 3, 2021