Ultimamente tenho conseguido retomar as atividades físicas e fazer passeios ao ar livre, ficar observando a natureza... Desde que meus pais e minha namorada foram 100% imunizados contra a covid-19, tenho me sentido mais confortável saindo de casa (com todos os cuidados, claro), embora eu só tenha tomado a primeira dose. Espero que a sensação de segurança aumente cada vez mais com a minha imunização completa e da população como um todo, porque por um tempo isso foi bem difícil. Só saía para suprir as necessidades básicas e, ainda assim, sentia muito medo o tempo todo. Ainda tenho muita insegurança e incerteza quanto ao futuro, mas fico feliz e aliviada de ver que as campanhas negacionistas e de desinformação não foram capazes de tirar a confiança do brasileiro nas vacinas. Isso traz esperança de que a vida comece a melhorar.
October 1, 2021
In the face of several family crises at once, where I found myself literally running and doing as much and as fast as I could to take care of two people in crisis, here's the important thing that happened: I remembered that God (or the great spirit or nature or whatever, call it life - I'm still unsure) well I remembered, I found out (again) that just because I think I'm old enought to be done with major troubles in my life, I'm not. There's things I need to learn, and I am being called to rise to occasions I thought I'd never have to again face, or am facing for the first time ever. No one has died, or been seriously injured. The crises and changes may ultimately lead to progress and new understandings. Or maybe not, and I'll have to accept that new reality. So ok. I do have support, loving husband, and family and friends. I'm safe, most of my relatives are safe and healthy. It could be much worse, but as a friend said recently, its not "the pain Olympics," meaning who had the most pain to go through "wins" the prize for most stressed. Also I remember another friend who said that I don't have to dismiss what I'm going thru just because others have it so much worse. Yes, count my blessings. Ok. But it's also ok to understand that a whole lot is being asked of me right now.
June 14, 2021