I noticed most posts in the Pandemic Journaling Project are about anger, fear, and blame. I try to live a normal life even though I reside in one of the current hot spots. Maybe I am a fatalist but believe you can do everything right and still die. My boss asked me to teach her and my coworkers to paint sunflowers on fence panels. We painted the panels after work Tuesday night. It felt good to help them be creative and enjoy something out of our daily routines. They all said they couldn't paint, but as you see, they were successful. I believe it is better to do the things you want to do than live in fear and anger. Many times, fear and anger can make you sick, so everyone, please try to make the best of what you have. The choice is yours.
November 9, 2021
This week it's my birthday and it will be my second pandemic birthday. Compared to others, I feel thankful - despite the pandemic, I have gotten to spend them with my family by taking the proper safety measures ahead of time. It also helps that my parents live in the middle of nowhere and do not have close contact with others. But I digress. A few years ago, I started this tradition of writing myself a letter on my actual birthday. The letter tone varies - sometimes (like last year), I scolded myself - saying "it's time to start thinking long term" and other letters I've given myself grace "you are doing so well." I've even started thinking of these letters as my "mid-year check-in" - how am I doing compared to my New Year's resolutions? Have I completely missed the mark? Am I on track? Since we did a mini-celebration last night (my family has an unusual amount of July birthdays), I've been musing what letter I will write to myself this year. I suspect after this past week, I will try to be kinder to myself. This pandemic has taught me to be grateful for what I have. But I'll let you know at some point what I end up writing. ;)
July 26, 2021