I never ever imagined, that in my wildest dreams, we’d be where we are right now. What a world we live in. It’s been a long week. It was our first week of having all of our students stuffed back into classes, the morale is really low at school y como si fuera poco, it was teacher appreciation week and I have never felt so unappreciated. It’s strange, really. I am not one to seek out support or love or accolades. However, seeing this sign, manipulated by someone in the community where I teach (used to read we love NAHS teachers), was a blow to the gut. I have given so much to teaching and to my students as I have this year... I wish I felt more from there. Anything really.
May 8, 2021
This week marked another first in my coronavirus life - seeing my cousin for the first time in twenty months. Since the pandemic started, she has vigorously maintained social distancing due to her boyfriend having type I diabetes. At times, it has been frustrating - we've invited her to family gatherings (small ones in which you needed a recent negative COVID test) which she turned down and earlier in the summer, her boyfriend had a health scare that prevented her from attending. In short, I thought it may be two years before I saw her again. Unfortunately, my time with her was cut short this weekend due to a work emergency. Back in June, I've noticed that I have begun experiencing symptoms of burnout and I had looked forward to a three day weekend to spend with her. But that was not to be - with my boss out and this work emergency having the CEO's attention - I missed my own birthday dinner. I felt incredibly guilty about it - I cherish the time I spend with my family - one silver lining of this pandemic. I worry that I haven't been able to spend as much time with my family this past month as I had hoped. I worry that I have worked too much and have not accomplished the things that I wanted to. Naturally, I have this realization as my time here in Kentucky comes to an end. It's always at the end when we look back and think "there was another choice, I could have done that differently." So, at the moment, I am feeling forlorn for the past three weeks - where have they gone? And what have I accomplished in that time?
July 27, 2021