A part of my soul is out there Waiting for everyone to devour Consuming words they may or may not enjoy I feel as though my work is cheap Like those bag of chips in the vending machine Bending my mind to give into to temptation’s Craving as I stare at my translucent reflection To see through the looking plastic of food That’s quite terrible for my gut but great for my mind’s soul Solely spirited sauntering around from daydreams To daymares of mistakes I am constantly trying to avoid Mentally but this too shall pass somehow if I let my mind wander And get lost in itself from fanfictions to dreams about achievements I hope n know I can get to once I get down to business To defeat my inner mind always adding extra weight when I just want to fly, but this weight I have will make me stronger Slowly through sweat, sugar, and saltiness, I will overcome through it all and find the weight less heavy Helping heal hearts’ holes wholey Wonder why characters go through pain? To remember the other versions of themselves To write new chapters and stories endlessly for the rest of time I wish this could rhyme more but it’s more about the journey That dash in between the numbers on a stone That last memory folks have of you before your face is forgotten That last photo people have of you wondering what type of person you were That last second of an impact you had that made my day to never forget that A part of my soul is out there With you.
April 21, 2021
I didn't realize how much my relationships had been affected till I got a chance to have a very carefully-distanced conversation with friends. I showed up at their building to give some books, and because their office window overlooks the entrance to the building, after we carefully exchanged goods they sat in the window and I stood by the front door and we talked for nearly an hour. Even though we were so far apart, it felt amazing to hear their actual voices unmediated by a computer. It's helpful to remember that we're all still human beings, with bodies, and being in embodied presence with each other is important.
July 12, 2020