I found this spider living in a water tub quite happy by itself and I think there’s a number of people that would be more than happy with that existence. The preppers are certainly calling for it - prepare for the inevitable collapse, and hunker down. Close your curtains and go to your safe room. Certain talk shows are fomenting it and gleefully stirring the pot. So that thread Is a constant under current running through a part of our community. It’s available on the social media platform of your choice 24/7. So I avoid the TV news and try to avoid the panic as well, but is that being foolish? A brief glance at the local paper touts CT doing well, and Phase 3 openings coming. Are things opening because we know more and things are under control or because we have Covid fatigue and are willing to risk more? I ventured out shopping for supplies today. First stop was paint store for stain for deck maintenance. That makes it feel like we plan to still be around next year. The staff was helpful wore their masks and task completed. I did notice that as soon as I left the store masks came off when it was just the staff together ... i guess that’s a pod? Then l noticed 5 people in line at an Urgent Care center offering Covid tests. I know some have to go every 10 days for testing so it’s helpful to have convenient places to go and people were distancing but there was a hint of anxiety in the air there, a bit like a lottery line when the jack pot gets big. Then to the grocery store which was packed... more people than I’ve seen in months. People were milling about and I saw conversations in aisles as people passed - Not out of fear or how dare you invade my space, but with determination and purpose, a nod , a quick pass, not In panic and it almost felt like the good old days only people were wearing masks. But then an invite from a friend for a visit and my husband very concerned with where have they been, will they mask, how do we social distance, and we usually have a meal when we get together so how do we accommodate that?. Do we continue to just say no, continuing to prioritize physical over emotional and social needs... Not easy trying to find the balance these days... it was almost easier earlier when there were no decisions to be made... lock down eliminated options.
September 27, 2020
This week's journal, I write about my experience as a immigrant during this pandemic. The level of anxiety, and consternation is on another level. The feeling of insecurity to even get tasted, is almost out of the book. The personal information such as your address is a big deal during the presidency of Trump. Mental health struggle, and finance, has driven me off the wall. There is no weekly unemployment check for immigrants that did not have work permit. Although, there is foods that are been distributed in the community for those that are struggle and need something to eat, those meals cannot feed entire family, and keep them health. In ... class, we are learning about the effect of nature and nurture in person's health. This Covid19 has expose significant affect of these in poor communities. There is even greater correlation to "Poverty Poison the Brain". Those foods are not the same as wealthy people ate. America, really is a country of struggle, and marginalize, contradicted to the land of "equal opportunities." Indeed, for some of us, this struggle is much better compared to where we came from. However, that is not solid, or valid excuse regrading to this matter.
October 6, 2020