Went for a bike ride trying to be “normal” but there’s an air of grey and sad, like the cold damp of the day, that just sneaks in sits in your bones. As much as things have opened up, and as safe as the vaccine snd booster have made me feel there’s now a variant. And even if the variant hadn’t emerged and we were dealing with the tail end of the pandemic there’s too much hurt and anger and fear these days. We are so divided, there’s so much distrust, that I wonder / worry if it’s possible to dig ourselves out. So as “normal” as things feel there’s an undertow I doubt will ever leave….
December 7, 2021
I know for certain my mental health has deteriorated since the onset of the pandemic. Since the onset of the pandemic, I have been diagnosed with clinical anxiety, symptoms of which I had never experienced before. I am struggling to find a medication that's effective in reducing the symptoms without causing problematic side-effects of their own. Many days I find it hard to concentrate on work tasks more than a few minutes at a time, which greatly hinders my ability to work on big projects that need attention. I am very easily distracted, I'm exhausted from roughly 2p onward, such that I get nothing done for myself or my house/partner after the work day ends. My decreased mental health has decreased my physical health. It's going to be a very, very long road back to healthy when the pandemic is over in this country, provided I survive.
March 17, 2021