When I got my reminder for journaling this week, I ignored it at first. I was really angry at not being able to get a vaccine appointment. But then this week, I did work that met enthusiastic approval from folks often hard to please AND: I decided to try to repair this lamp. The switch was going bad for some time and then one day I couldn't turn the lamp on. I love this lamp, it's on the dresser in my bedroom. I found it at one of those discount home goods stores a few years ago, so it's one of a kind. I watched some videos online, then I walked over to the hardware store and bought a new socket. I got out some tools and replaced the socket and voilá, it works! What a sense of efficacy and overcoming doubt. And I just got back from getting dose one. So a really good week. (And it's spring!!!!)
March 27, 2021
Yesterday, a shooting ... happened where 8 people died, the majority of which were Asian women. I feel numb, if I'm being honest. I feel numb to mass shootings, I feel numb to violence. I think I've also realized that self-suppression is so real. Even though I'm Asian American, I find myself thinking "try not to make noise, people don't think this is a big deal". That's the problem though - people don't think the Asian-American discrimination and violence is a big deal. I should be making noise, we should be being loud and asking why our issues have not been prioritized and why there is rarely any news coverage on it as well. I'm tired and sad and wanting safety for my community.
March 19, 2021