One thing that brings me happiness is creating abstract artwork in old school Photoshop 5.5 using the Kai's Power Tools plug-in called Texture Explorer. Before the pandemic I was thinking of resurrecting my Titanium G4 Powerbook from 2001 and running some of the KPT visionary software that has since been abandoned. The entire process of getting the computer working in the first place made me pretty happy, and now I create a few of these cellular landscapes each day, listening to music and getting lost in the process. They each take about an hour because the CPU processing is limited to 68K and there's a lot of waiting, but it's worth it. I create them and they remind me of the way we have all changed in the past year, how we have become more aware of living life on a molecular level with differing influences as we change our behavior. I'm trying to make that awareness beautiful.
April 8, 2021
I am a sad medical student left behind, because I am not ready to help yet. I am sad daughter fighting with my parents, because everyday contact is not good for anybody. I am also a sad daughter seeing my parents worried and angry because the banks won't freeze the loans, even though no monei is really moving in the market. They must be thinking we have a chicken that makes golden eggs, or the tree that Pinocchio wanted to find, that grows gold in its roots. Because wherelse do people find the money to pay loans when the part of the world that doens't include great forces and capitals, is forzen. I am a sad friend, who can't speak on the phone anymore, because my head hurts. They tell us (I am sure they are laighung internally saying it), "When all this is over, you will find out which relationship was worthy to last and which not".....Come on, government...You became the lady in the gossip magazine with the relationship advice. I am a sad lover, who normally leaves abroad and came to my homeland to see my person and now we can't meet anyway. I am a sad and angry citizen, whose rights are being violated and who can't fight the police that beats us in every oportunity. But I am not angry with corona at all. Corona is not some invisible enemy like the mass media are keep saying. It is a virus, not even a living organism, who caught us by surprise...once again. Because history repeats itsslef, but apparently nobody read their history books, or literature books, or watched any good movies when they should. And now everyone is blaming each other and all together are blaming Corona. But it is convinient blaming some RNA molecules, isn't it?
November 26, 2020