I'm beginning to feel a bit more hopeful about the future, which is symbolized by this image called Dawn. The symmetry and perfection of the graphic represents a feeling of cohesion and capability, something we have all lost during the past year. I've been able to complete some projects this week that were impossible to finish because I was distracted and unable to concentrate. A lot of this has happened because I was finally able to find an appointment for a vaccine, which is scheduled for tomorrow at 6:39pm. At the same time that I feel empowered by this, I am also disappointed that this pandemic has turned just about everything into a chore. It will be some time before we are once again able to enjoy our spontaneity together.
March 31, 2021
I'm not sure what made this week different from last week. All the days blur together and I've lost track of time... I did go to the beach on Sunday and that was really fun. Felt nice to be outdoors and swim in the ocean. But one really annoying thing is that on my way home there were two girls on the subway who didn't have masks on. When I asked them why they didn't have masks, they got really annoyed with me and started to insult me. I felt horrible and helpless. I didn't know what to do. Everyone else just stood around silent. I wanted to cry, but didn't. I got up and moved to another area of the train, and I could hear the two girls boasting that they had won and that I was just a stupid nag. I felt awful.
July 31, 2020