Maintaining my composure For the past week Suddenly is a burden Days ago came the call “Tested positive,” I heard. A wail sounds off in my mind I cannot catch my breath Nothing else is of value More than the next days More than family health More than ridding virus Passing by,family unscathed There is no assurance My son and grandson Both have the covid virus As I write this entry DJT has been deemed A threat to democracy Having incited insurrection This moment the vote The 45th impeached. My heart beats rapidly As my mind spins facts “Fear” by Woodward described Knowing he hid the truth How deadly the virus He hid ifacts, so did party Now ten republicans Add votes to impeach. There is no assurance My grandson is four A fever hit him yesterday. I made the print in 2001 After 9/11 caused us pain My face was torn in two With globes spinning by I added simple spikes A simple mask in ink But now concentric Circles radiate outward Encapsulating more And more in rainbow Hues as 400,000 Perished, more follow Without Trump’s treatment Given to Guliani too There is no assurance We wait at social distance My heart ripped in two. Silence at 4:37 PM EST No one rampaging taking place in the Capitol Today in Congress the president is again impeached. 232 197 Passed.
January 14, 2021
My mother went into a nursing home right when the pandemic started and it's been so challenging trying to see her. In the beginning, no visits. Then over the summer, window visits. Then, in the fall, when her facility got things under control finally, outdoor visits. For about a week in November we then had indoor visits but then someone in her facility tested positive, so it's back to outdoor visits. On Monday I went to see her. It was REALLY cold. This is how I dressed. This is how I have to suit up to protect myself from the cold and my mother from me. This is what life is like the second week of December, 2020 as we are drowning in what they are euphemistically calling a second wave. Let's be honest and call it what is is: a fucking tsunami. For the record, for all you future historians studying this archive when those of writing this are all dead (Hopefully of old age and not covid) let's be clear: IT DIDN"T HAVE TO BE THIS WAY. New record deaths--Three thousand just today. And we've still got months and months to go. No national mask mandate. No national movement restrictions. Hospitals rationing medicine. People getting sent home to die. All because we have a fuckwad of a president who is more concerned about overturning an election HE LOST, rather than governing and helping people. Right now all we can do is go day by day and hope that when Biden takes office he can turn this thing around.
December 12, 2020