I felt very alone this week. Some of it was the anniversary of my mother’s passing, some the disgust at the nonsense on the political scene, and some the anticipated let down of the coming Holiday seasons (which will be more nonevents and missed family and friends gatherings) .. these all seemed to push my Pandemic switch from acceptance of this “new normal”, past Covid fatigue to Covid retreat. I spent one whole day surfing YouTube videos...all very educational as I demanded that of myself...no cute kittens and puppies, or compilations of fails as I did not want any more wallowing in failures or fluff...but how many flourless cake recipes, Tahitian dance competitions, how to trim cow hooves, or say yes to the dress silly bride episodes can one take. Next day I had to get out of the house, apparently with everyone else experiencing the same thing, and I found myself in a crowded store stocking up wishing I wasn’t there and wondering why I was?
November 18, 2020
The last couple of weeks have been very exciting for me! I got my degree and a week later I got offered a band 5 NHS Podiatry job! I am both excited and nervous about this new chapter in my life. ... I am sad to leave Edinburgh as it has been my home for the last 4 years as a student, it is where I met so many great people and I feel as though it is now my second home. I just cannot believe 4 years are over! ... The picture I have uploaded is right on my doorstep, literally! ... Lots of people travel to go on holiday up here, which at the moment is a bit annoying. I know we are moving through the stages and it is technically allowed, it is still anxiety inducing however to suddenly see more people in this very rural area. I wish people were more aware and conscientious of the fact that these "holiday destinations" are peoples homes.
July 29, 2020