I escaped this week and it felt great. This picture is only about 30 minutes of relaxation while watching children, but still, to be out of the house, in nature, with family, it was amazing! I broke all the rules - hugs, snuggles with a baby who is passed from person to person and slobbers over everyone, going into houses, eating together, etc. Frankly, I don't care. Right now at least. I hope and pray that I am able to stay healthy and that all of my family is too. It was risky but necessary - my mother had emergency surgery and I needed to be there. Thank God, she is healing and fine. And I would do it again to be there for her. I had missed her so much. Going there felt great, and coming home again felt much better. I don't feel as trapped, as desperate. And when I do start to go stir crazy again, now I have this beautiful picture to remind me that there is still nature and family not too far away.
August 11, 2020
Mourning my own as I gaze upon the English mourning The pandemic stole my right to mourn I remained huddled in my home My friends Were buried on zoom. My colleagues, friends, advisors Passing after shutdown March ‘20 And yet a year later I sought To set aside a memorial moment. In lieu of wakes and shivas Along with my in-person hugs I sat through Prince Philip’s service Mourning all my losses in a royal setting Taking time for silence and grief Thank yous for the Royal Family For this moment set aside to grieve. I engaged with the service, half listening, My own departed held no titles,no heraldries Philip’s honors appropriate for queen’s mate. I was gifted the time to observe and reflect Upon dear friends some younger than he They had died, as he, untouched by covid. I sat before the flat screen and mourned Remembering each friends’ kindness, each one’s care. The army-green Land Rover turned at Windsor gates With a bear skin helmeted officer standing in salute I marked the passing month by month of friends And on this day I transformed the regale spectacle Into my own service remembering my own losses Internally I stood in salute and prayed for each My own special persons, grateful for this timely solution.
April 23, 2021