At the beginning of the pandemic, i stocked up with a healthy assortment of books from the library, from friends, and from my own collection which I intended to read or re-visit I did get through some of them, but I also fell into the bad habit of doomscrolling the news -- reading the endless parade of articles about politics, shortages, restrictions, deaths, the progression of the disease across the nation -- and finding myself unable to concentrate on books on paper i wish I'd committed to a limit on reading articles online and reserving a space for reading books Looking back, my time was better spent adding to the list of books I've read, instead of the amorphous blur of worrisome thoughts and dire warnings that constituted the daily online onslaught. I understand why I did it, but I'd do it differently today
December 10, 2021
I’m feeling nervous. I think we’re getting mixed messages and am not sure what that means... some still won’t get vaccinated, but masks no longer needed, schools open, less restrictions on gathering...so I’m afraid everyone will think it’s over. And maybe it is...maybe It doesn’t matter to the vaccinated, maybe it doesn’t matter to the unvaccinated who will think they haven’t gotten it so far so won’t in the future. I’ve kind of liked my little cocoon, or bubble...it felt safe in the midst of crazy and fear and anger, and I’m not sure how much of that has lessened just because our illness rates are down, because I’m not so sure the “crazy” quotient is reducing. 5/17
May 17, 2021