I escaped this week and it felt great. This picture is only about 30 minutes of relaxation while watching children, but still, to be out of the house, in nature, with family, it was amazing! I broke all the rules - hugs, snuggles with a baby who is passed from person to person and slobbers over everyone, going into houses, eating together, etc. Frankly, I don't care. Right now at least. I hope and pray that I am able to stay healthy and that all of my family is too. It was risky but necessary - my mother had emergency surgery and I needed to be there. Thank God, she is healing and fine. And I would do it again to be there for her. I had missed her so much. Going there felt great, and coming home again felt much better. I don't feel as trapped, as desperate. And when I do start to go stir crazy again, now I have this beautiful picture to remind me that there is still nature and family not too far away.
August 11, 2020
This week I was really struck by this quote “Autumn shows us how beautiful it is to let things go”, and I really tried to concentrate on that beauty, with varied success. Fall is usually my favorite time of year. It means camping, bike riding, visiting family, and hikes with friends. Catching the last warm days at the beach when the water is warmer than the air, and swimming is exhilarating. The world changes color. The light at sunset makes greens greener, and yellows yellower, for just a short time. Then slowly the leaves start to fall and the light fades and the colors that dressed the “forest’s fashion show” are left scattered on the ground. Then one last hoorah, to walk through leaf piles, and listen to the music of the shushing of dried leaves dancing around feet shuffling through them. The shades and shapes of brown, and the occasional dazzling burst of reds and yellows painted by some invisible hand. That’s the beauty of autumn letting go. The hard part is realizing many of the joys this year were missed because of Covid, so letting go became more the focus. The challenge was, and is, to stay focused in the present and not worry about the coming cold, increased isolation, and the after effects of the election. Feels like a double whammy this year, but maybe that makes this quote even more poignant...”how beautiful it is to let things go”...
October 27, 2020