Blank. That’s how my mind feels these days, blank. During the pandemic we’ve been staying home nearly all of the time. Staying at home so much, my days all become the same, there is nothing significant happening so that I can associate it with a day of the week. I fear my memory is becoming worse. I’ve been trying to write down highlights of each day, but more often than not, nothing happens. Over the weekend I noticed my ability to sleep was derailed one night, I went to bed at 2 am, woke up at 3 am, and didn’t fall asleep until 7 am. I had to wake up at 8 am to turn on my computer in my “office” room and start working. This insomnia lasted until monday, when I became desperate and decided to drink lots of alcohol so that I would fall asleep. It’s not funny, but it actually worked, LOL! I slept like a baby and got back on schedule. Sigh, this is how my life has changed during the pandemic, struggling to keep my memories straight. If anything, I think I have a much better understanding of the elderly who are isolated and suffer from memory loss.
February 25, 2021
I hiked the mesa above El Malpaís National Monument on Sunday I noticed that parts of the sandstone trail were dark red It reminded me of the current COVID infection map of the U.S. I had a fleeting, fanciful thought that perhaps the earth itself was turning brick red to match the color of the hot spots This is all just to say that the COVID pandemic is never far from my mind
January 31, 2022