Blank. That’s how my mind feels these days, blank. During the pandemic we’ve been staying home nearly all of the time. Staying at home so much, my days all become the same, there is nothing significant happening so that I can associate it with a day of the week. I fear my memory is becoming worse. I’ve been trying to write down highlights of each day, but more often than not, nothing happens. Over the weekend I noticed my ability to sleep was derailed one night, I went to bed at 2 am, woke up at 3 am, and didn’t fall asleep until 7 am. I had to wake up at 8 am to turn on my computer in my “office” room and start working. This insomnia lasted until monday, when I became desperate and decided to drink lots of alcohol so that I would fall asleep. It’s not funny, but it actually worked, LOL! I slept like a baby and got back on schedule. Sigh, this is how my life has changed during the pandemic, struggling to keep my memories straight. If anything, I think I have a much better understanding of the elderly who are isolated and suffer from memory loss.
February 25, 2021
I've been finding self-support in these hard times with artmaking! Whenever I feel anxious, I make a little digital drawing about something uplifting. This one is just about the beauty of wind turbines, behemoths stretching over green fields to the horizon, waving hello in unison. They look so cool. They are so big. Sometimes I see individual blades carried in oversized load trucks and can hardly believe how big they are.
November 10, 2021