Last night some friends and I went to a film presentation at the planetarium I was planning to wear while in the theater space, more out of courtesy to the others in the audience, who were mostly seniors As we got out of the car and headed toward the building, I started to rummage around in my bag but I couldn't find any, not even any spares For the past two years I've kept at least one or two extras in my day pack, and usually had a few regular face masks in rotation, depending on where I'd be going and what level of protection I needed to display I guess I'd taken them all out for washing or had discarded them after use. I mentally shrugged my shoulders and went inside Face masks weren't required in the theater; about 10% of the audience was wearing them The theater was sold out and it did feel odd to be in an enclosed room, without a face mask, breathing the air with 150 strangers It's going to take some time to feel like I'm not taking a huge risk while around crowds, indoors, without a face mask
June 15, 2023
The summer has come to an end as the leaves begin to fall, and as the weather starts to become colder across the USA, we are entering a new chapter of human existence. The change in the seasons and the new school year has brought a new set of emotions and environments for many people worldwide. Many of us have seen more people in the last month than in the previous six months, meaning that interacting with other students and teachers can seem foreign, after many months of only seeing your friends or teachers over zoom. For me, this last month has been uniquely tricky compared to the (equally or more complicated) months of quarantine, as I became less accustomed to handling a large workload and have experienced social anxiety. I frequently ask myself questions such as, “how has social distancing made it harder to make true friendships?” “am I learning enough?” “am I trying hard enough” and “how do I care for my mental health and keep up my grades?”. All these questions tie broadly into something that arose in a new environment: the unknown we have to become accustomed to. I see myself completely unsure about my future and the present moment, unlike ever before, due to the many factors of not complete experience in college and the future. It feels as if I am back in school and not at the same time perceiving I am not getting the “full” experience of college I expected to get, but being grateful to what I am given. Once I question my surroundings and see how “different” I am experiencing my life than ever before, I know the importance of embracing what we don’t know and following my intuitions.
September 22, 2020