The sheer magnitude of the traumatic, distrubing political events of the last year is mind-boggling. I was never a fan of the Republican party, Trump or his blatantly white supremicist rhetroic, but seeing his army of insurrectionists descend on the Capitol in real time is an event that will FOREVER impact how I view American politics and the cult of personality. Between January 6th and January 21st, I lived in immense fear of our democracy toppling forever at the hands of Q-ANON-ers, bigots, or foreign adversaries. I'm still afraid. I don't know that we will ever come back from Trump's mishandling of COVID, of the presidency, of our future as a nation.
April 2, 2021
All I have wanted since I was furloughed from my retail job is to feel that I have a purpose. When working, I have a purpose, helping customers, my co-workers and following through on my responsibilities at the store. I have not worked since the last week of February and I am in awe of how much time has passed. I am lucky that my co-workers are an extension of my family and we are in touch and I have visited the store a few times to see those who are working. It is beyond difficult to feel one has no purpose. I take care of many aspects of our home, but I am no housewife! Making a nice dinner for my husband and daughter does not give me purpose, but I wish it did. Let these vaccines move forward and let this come to a place where we are all safer and I can regain what I define as my purpose, to return to work and feel some sort of normalcy once again.
December 16, 2020