A church near us has this message board up and usually it has been a sweet thing to glance at as we walk past--- names of people who are being prayed for, etc. These past few weeks people are scribbling over each other's messages and erasing each other's words, all about politics. I hate looking at it -- it's like an embodiment of our current situation, some people (only a few around here) yelling about how great Republicans are and others reacting with justified fury. I wish the church would just take away the chalk because there's nothing sweet about it now. During this pandemic we are all in a state of fury and terror all the time and our opportunities to connect are few and limited, and even a church chalkboard turns into polarized social media war.
October 14, 2020
Today I got a job. It is a PA job. Not even close to my dream job. Not even close to anything I trained for or hoped for. But it is a job. With a paycheck. With hours to not be at home. With hours that have concrete things to do. I know that I am one of the lucky ones. I have the potential for a paycheck at the time that SO many people are losing theirs. So I am trying to be grateful. I'm trying to not be sad about the things I'm losing out on. I'm trying to look at what this job is going to be able to give me: money; a sense of stability; the ability to regain strength to be creative again; a flexible schedule so I can continue doing work that is meaningful for me.
October 17, 2020