My mom died this week. She didn't die of COVID, but she died *with* it. But she was still forced to die alone. Her husband of 46 years is devastated. He was able to spend 15 minutes with her earlier in the day in full PPE. He wasn't supposed to touch her, but he snuck his hand in anyway. And those lines on the picture are because we had to watch on FaceTime and take a screenshot. You hear about these lonely deaths. But you don't truly understand the depth of it until your family experiences it. It's so complicated, and adds a layer of grief on top of what's already an unimaginable loss. We will never recover from this.
April 4, 2021
What brings me happiness these days are my friends. My friends have always been my go-to stress relief, my emotional support, and my source of fun. I do not expressly look for them to supply me with these things, but thats what makes it beautiful. When things come naturally in friendships, especially during a time where things feel so unnatural, then those some friendships just become that much more precious. That is the case with me and mine. I love my friends dearly, and that is never going to change, yet this pandemic has truly brought out a side of us that shows how loving we can really be. I am very appreciative of them.
October 29, 2020