This is what I like to call the behind-the-scenes pic of my Christmas morning. This pic feels a lot like the past couple of weekshas, and what I worry weeks will continue to feel like: Decent attempts to connect remotely with loved ones that - despite going as well as can be expected - will always fall short of the dream; immense effort with what feels like unequal return value; cluttered, messy chaos everywhere after which I seem to perpetually be picking/cleaning up. 2 weeks of personal peace, revert to months of anxiety (and now depression). Vaccine, scary mutation. Election, sedition. New Year, same year.
January 7, 2021
I feel angry at those who have ignored lock down and the rules. They are so selfish thinking that this doesn't affect them. It affects everyone. My close friend has lost her mum because of this virus. She's only 21, her mum was barely 50. I am also annoyed at the Government that their selfish and arrogant attitude towards this virus has cost thousands of lives. Why are they not being held accountable? I am so glad Scotland has devolved power over health and education so we can make better choices compared to England. The amount of people who are always in the parks sitting in massive groups, even before it was allowed to have picnics, should be held accountable too. And what is with people not understanding the 2 meter rule? The amount of times I have to move out the way because they won't is infuriating, like, sure, I'll just press myself against a wall/ walk into the road to avoid you? I just wish everyone started taking accountability for their actions.
July 6, 2020