Look it's my birthday! I turned 26 and am not a ditz I work hard as a teacher, coach, and student. I am kind, strong, empathetic and creative. Look it's my birthday! I know it is a little tilted I have a new vision of myself after 2020 I am caring, principled, knowledgeable, and a risk taker. Look it's my birthday! We are still in quarantine. I haven't been this sick since I was fourteen I am grateful, humble, hopeful and inspired. Look it's my birthday! I miss you grandmother, I know you passed away Only 6 days before my birthday. I miss hearing your voice, your song as you sing happy birthday My greatest gift of all is family this birthday. I sat in your chair, I took care of your dog, I look after your husband And I miss you most of all. On this birthday in the new year and there is a new me of sorts I thank everyone around me for getting this far Even though I no longer have healthcare I will continue to keep the memories of those I have lost with me. Look it's my birthday! I drove very far, the first time to grandparents house only 356 miles far I walked through the door holding back tears And hugged your daughter as she welcomed me into my new year.
January 20, 2021
I am especially angry that there are still so many white racist conservative bigots in elected positions and in positions of power. The history of racism in this country and its present day manifestations are abhorrent. I just can't believe that anyone can believe that any human is 'less than' based on color of their skin - or any reason really. I don't understand why reparations have not already been made - long ago. Not that it will fix everything but at least it is a start. It's kind of like anti-abortion people who are anti-healthcare and for the death penalty. They want to save all these unborn lives but then they don't want to take any responsibility for giving those lives equal chances to live. It just doesn't compute for me. I've also been thinking about all the businesses that had to close in nyc. I hate that most likely the businesses that move in will be corporate, the greedy real estate people and big businesses. It's not right. And I feel powerless to stop any of this nonsense.
April 7, 2021