I got Moderna #2 today. Yay! So very relieved to be on the road to immunity. After the year of global pandemic, lock down, isolation, fear, irritability, uncertainty, and bouts of insomnia and thoughts of doom I am so joyous for this moment. This week I have seen some improvement in my energy level and mental outlook. I haven't been so quick to respond to issues or actions with anger. Instead I find it easier to just pause and breathe, observe and then respond. I still feel most days like I'm on my own secluded island, though. Suspicious of any strangers. Wary if I see a maskless person in public. Too quick to judge. But I'm getting better I think especially now that I'm fully vaccinated. I feel like I'm free to plan ahead again. Eager to get information from the CDC on what I can and cannot do going forward. Excited about travel and seeing family and friends. Still, in the back of my mind there's a kernel of doubt. What about all these new variants? How long does immunity last? Can I infect others? Much yet to be determined.
March 8, 2021
This week I have been feeling very angry at the south part of the United States... here in NY we were very obedient and worked hard to reduce the spread of COVID-19. We got it first and worst of anyone else in the country-- it makes me mad that we were able to get it under control while the rest of the United States acted stupid and now their stupidity could affect us again. I am also really angry with the president Trump. I HATE HIM SOOOOOOO much. I blame him and the Republicans for this mess we are in now. NY could be fully reopening if it wasn't for the rest of the country's stupid denial of science and medicine and refusal to wear masks. Sometimes I wish NY could separate from the rest of the USA. If Trump wins again I must move out of this country-- it is going down the drain and it makes me more upset than I can express. Now we are banned from Europe!?!!! So freaking sad and pathetic.
July 6, 2020