"WEAR YOUR MASK" says the newest graffiti on the cement wall under an overpass by the trail I walked on yesterday morning. It makes me so sad to see that message and realize that once again it is relevant to our lives. If everyone eligible and medically able to would have just gotten the shot in the past few months, our country wouldn't be in this mess: of overcrowded hospitals and people once again dying of Covid. We all want to put the pandemic behind us and get back to normal: re-start the economy, have children learn in person in school, and socialize without fear. So, why, why, why, when we have the means to do this -- do so many people refuse to follow medically sound advice? My frustration knows no bounds.
August 10, 2021
Second day back after quarantine. Feeling drained, anxious, depressed. Feeling old (for me) classic symptoms of depression...I don’t deserve to be happy, nothing I do makes a difference, why do I keep trying, nobody cares about my efforts. I’m tired. I’m hurting. And I know I’m one of thousands right now. I know people have it worse than I do. Why should anyone care when I have an income, I have a roof over my head, I have my health (for now)? But knowing these things doesn’t make the pain subside. I don’t want to work at a school right now. I don’t think anyone should be trying to teach right now. It’s too much expectation on the kids and the adults (parents and teachers alike). I can’t quit. I need the income. I’m sick and tired of being an American during this pandemic
December 2, 2020