I read 'The Cancer Journals' by Audre Lorde earlier in the week and, though she was talking about the individual experience of having breast cancer, her words about how sudden illness impacts all facets of yourself stood out. She describes 'the agony of an involuntary reorganisation of my entire life' following a negative diagnosis. This resonated very much in terms of how many people lost out with lockdown. However, she also says: 'But within those three weeks, I was forced to look upon myself and my living with a harsh and urgent clarity that has left me shaken but still stronger'. I hope this will apply as we recover from Covid-19.
August 4, 2020
We barely see our neighbors. I don’t know how they’re doing, if they are even still living there. I mean the old neighbors. The younger, I see them all the time. But the old, they almost never go out. Some evening, it was already dark, I saw the old lady from the first floor on a bench outside our building. I felt she was a bit surprised or even scared that I entered the building. I thought, maybe she forgot that other people are living in the building. Maybe I also forgot about her.
December 9, 2020