Ten months into this pandemic, and I still find myself stopping in my tracks from time to time. Today I went for a walk in my neighborhood. I spotted something blue out of the corner of my eye. At first, I glanced at it and went on my merry way. Then I stopped. A year ago, such a sighting would have made me truly stop and wonder. What is it? Who put it there? Did someone make it? Today, my brain quickly dismisses the sighting ...it's just a discarded cloth face mask, probably tossed out a car window or slipped out of someone's pocket. This pandemic has taught me that one never knows what the future holds. Right now, I'm on the precipice of not knowing what my future holds for me professionally. Maybe the pandemic will bring this public health professional a new and different project. Or maybe I will have to close my consulting firm and pursue full-time employment. Only time will tell.
November 22, 2020
I finally worked up the courage to make appointments with my diabetes doctor and with a Gyn doc. This f- pandemic has wrecked my blood sugar, between the stress and irregular meals and weight gain and lack of a gym - and yet I feel ashamed, I’m the one who gets all the blame for my health. Now I’ve run out of my diabetes medicine, thought I had 4 more refills but I don’t. The doc won’t refill til they see me, but they won’t see me for another month. This is my life. Moms in the hospital again with bleeding, she keeps calling me crying and I find myself getting short with her. I suck as a daughter. I’m gonna try to get my son in for the vaccine now that the state opened it up to everyone. Hope you all are doing better than this.
March 24, 2021