Los Angeles is our home. The city of legends, the sparling mother of ten thousand stories. Traffic is legendary, the cost of living is astounding, earthquakes are terrifying. What makes our City of Angels worth all of that ? The venues, the amazing restaurants, the world class shopping and art museums. An afternoon at the Getty is everyone's favorite date. Or a visit to the Norton Simon, Hammer or LACMA -- each one showcasing it's own world class collection of brilliant art. And the gardens, (n the photo, Getty Museum). Paradise to wander through. And basically free of charge. You see "Everyone" there, the rich & famous, and everyday moms and dads with their kids. And of course, the Lakers, Dodgers, Rams, Clippers, Bruins, Trojans and all the rest of the teams we love. The food. Holy Angels in Heaven, the food. From every corner of the world, our neighbors brought their delicious food. Showcasing the food their parents brought from hundreds of "old countries". Fancy restaurants where dinner is $100 or more each, and thousands of modest places that would have delighted Anthony Bourdain. Gone. Closed. Barely surviving on take-out orders. Overnight, it all vanished. No games to cheer at. Just TV in our own living rooms. The Rose Parade -- gone. All those wonderful places to visit and eat -- gone. Not to mention our family holidays. Christmas by Zoom ? Hardly. Tickets to Staples ? Not this year ! I got "the stick" first, and E. got hers today. Like plants budding in spring, the places we have missed gradually will come back to life. And our lives slowly will come out of isolation to welcome them. Finally we can celebrate with our family again. No more fear that a holiday dinner might kill an elderly aunt or uncle. Being able to get together with friends and family is the best part of our gradual awakening. Maybe what we learned from the virus is the importance of family.
March 12, 2021
I feel like a blob most of the time. I find it very difficult to go for walks - even more so now that it is generally cold, grey and wet outside. I find it difficult to do the exercise things over YouTube. I think that I am not good. I don't feel flexible. I don't feel fit. I just feel like a giant blob trying to move. And then professionally --- I am not doing what I trained to do, and then when there is the opportunity to do so as a volunteer, I am just too afraid to try. Which then circles back, do I really want to do this. Why am I suddenly so afraid? Why am I am not pushing forward with my dreams? What is really holding be back? And the answer is - I don't know, and am kinda afraid to find out.
December 30, 2020