I saw this sign yesterday. To me, this faded sign represents the perfect image for how most people feel about the pandemic: fading from everyone’s collective minds, part of the past and something that’s been forgotten to take down. However, the sad truth is that’s it’s still very much with us and will be for a long time. We’ve just collectively decided that we don’t care. Just yesterday I learned that my sister’s law firm partner has long COVID and she is barely able to work. People dismiss COVID as mild but the reality is that we will see a lot of unnecessary suffering, be it long COVID or deaths, because of our collective choices and our refusal to implement long term measures (like ventilation, etc). Some days I’m just so discouraged at the state of the world. It feels like we can’t do anything right. The feeling is obviously exacerbated by all the other events happening around the world (Ukraine, school shootings, climate change, etc.). It’s depressing to see that we are incapable to do anything long term if it’s too inconvenient. Even medium term is unbearable to us as a society. We are so privileged and allergic to change, we’d rather be in a bad status quo than do anything about it.
December 7, 2022
With the news of some of my friends receiving the first vaccine I felt really hopeful. I bought clothes that I could eventually wear back to work and thought about all of the wonderful things that 2021 could bring. I am hoping that we will be vaccinated by the fall and may daughter can start middle school by walking in the door with her friends. But of course, with the excitement of the holiday (even though we didn't really do anything!) and everything leading up to it, I felt busy and hopeful. Now, I know there is darkness that is going to run its course and we have to hope we can safely get through the next few months +. I am still going to hold on to my hope, but I feel that we are in the one foot in front of the other mode again. It's daunting.
January 5, 2021