This is the Half Dome in Yosemite Park. On the right, you can see the Vernal and Nevada waterfalls. There are some things we do that remain "highlights" of our lives. The first night with your wife, the birth of your child, the events that make us who we are now In past years, I have walked up onto the top of that rock. First in 1965 when I was 15, and twice more over the years. Many folks do it, you actually need a permit now to keep the congestion under control. But by any standard, it's one hell of a eight mile walk just to the cables. Then the last bit, with steel cables for safety, because it's so steep you can barely stand. Scary, I will admit it. That walk takes strength and courage both. Each time, It was a major accomplishment of my life. So now I can go to my rest (not this year, thank you) knowing that at least three times I got to climb Half Dome, AND I survived the "Plague" or Pandemic of 2020. Not everyone can say both of those. Virginia Woolf said someplace (and quoting an old Roman) : I joined a vast fleet Sailing on the Ocean of Time When my ship sank The others sailed on My ship is loaded with these victories. And others, but these two will always be special for me. Thank you for giving us this place to write our stories.
May 31, 2021
I'm really not doing much for fun right now, except for going on the internet and maybe playing music. I went to visit a friend for her birthday the other day which was nice, but I had an anxiety attack afterwards which I think was a sign. Before the pandemic, I would go out at least one a week to see friends, or just hang out with people. It was always really nice, and I never though much about it until the pandemic, when I didn't do it anymore. After my anxiety attack this week, where I was really just sad about not being able to talk to people and feeling lonely, I think I need to consciously find ways to have fun, laugh and most importantly, spend time with my friends. These past few months I've been going out to see one of my best friends at her apartment more, and every time I go I have a great time, even if all we're doing is eating dinner, watching a movie, or going on a walk. I realize now just how much in-person human connection is vital, especially with those you're closest to who truly understand you.
January 8, 2021