I read 'The Cancer Journals' by Audre Lorde earlier in the week and, though she was talking about the individual experience of having breast cancer, her words about how sudden illness impacts all facets of yourself stood out. She describes 'the agony of an involuntary reorganisation of my entire life' following a negative diagnosis. This resonated very much in terms of how many people lost out with lockdown. However, she also says: 'But within those three weeks, I was forced to look upon myself and my living with a harsh and urgent clarity that has left me shaken but still stronger'. I hope this will apply as we recover from Covid-19.
August 4, 2020
The first week of the new year, and I am feeling in general more positive I suppose. There is always the feeling of turning the page and beginning anew that comes with the new year, and now there is the hope of an eventual improvement with the vaccine, although it won't be quick. At the same time, the political violence and uncertainty in the US is unsettling; again, I give thanks for so many reasons that I'm not living there at this particular time in history, but am worrying anew about family who are stuck in red states there. So am also looking forward to turning the political page and hopefully moving to better control the virus and finally see those statistics change for the better.
January 12, 2021