Aprendí a dibujar y usar crayones pastel en el colegio cuando tenía 14 años. Realicé algunas pinturas y luego todo aquello cayó en el olvido, me dediqué a otras ramas del arte. Con la pandemia, decidí retomar el dibujo, algunos con crayones pastel y otros, con acuarelas, una técnica que siempre me ha costado dominar. Dicen que cuando aprendes a pintar en óleo de primero, luego es un enredo lograr la técnica de acuarela. Eso me ocurrió a mí. Comencé con algunas flores y paisajes en acuarela y luego decidí dibujar y pintar a mis mascotas: tres gatas y una perra llamada Piscis. En la foto pueden observar el retrato de Piscis. Con los ejercicios de pintura intentaba aplacar la ansiedad de esos días. Los trabajos se habían detenido, había demasiado tiempo libre. No me apetecía invertirlo en oficios de la casa. Así que pensé en volver a la pintura. El resultado ha sido un diario de viaje que tenía guardado por ahí, en el que he ido pintando paulatinamente flores, paisajes y retratos de mis mascotas. Este diario de viaje quedará como un testimonio de mi actividad artística durante la pandemia.
September 24, 2020
Adjusting to school is so difficult. I've cried 2 days in a row over just one of my classes, and it's still the first week so 3 of my classes haven't even really began yet. I'm taking 5 classes (and 1 weekend lab course in April) so I planned to drop a class after I got a feel for them anyways. Something positive I did do though is I just scheduled a telehealth consultation for mental health through my university's mental health services! Ever since my dad was laid off in late April, I haven't been able to see my therapist because of the cost, and it's been really difficult trying to identify a therapist to call who accepts our new State Medicaid insurance. I've always found therapist in the past through referrals, so this time has been really difficult and I haven't found one yet or even have the energy to call some. I'm hoping that the mental health consultation will lead to me getting in contact with a therapist at my university's mental health services department, as even though I've heard not so great things about them, something is better than nothing and it could guide me in the right direction. I just been feeling so angry and slightly depressed and honestly I feel like I have a lack of sense of direction and I feel like I've become disconnected from myself. I'm hoping that with a therapist, I'll be able to work through these issues and figure out where they come from to reconnect with my purpose and happiness again.
January 26, 2021