I took this photo of my wife working from home about a month ago and it’s one of my favorites. It really captures this year for me. Although it’s been a year of disruption and isolation from many of our friends and family, it’s also been a year of getting so much more time together and of comfort, warmth, and love. That’s what this picture represents to me. The end of this week will mark when my vaccine should be fully effective and I’ve really started to think about what life is going to be like coming out of this. It’s been weird because I have spent so long trying to prepare to be in this altered state for a very, very long time, that I didn’t really allow myself to think about going “back to normal.” And now normal feels like the altered state. Now going back to the way things were seems almost disruptive because we’ve adapted to how life is now. Already work is going back to regular full schedules and I’m not really looking forward to that because I’ve enjoyed the time off even at a reduced paycheck. I am looking forward to seeing friends and my family again but I still don’t even know when that will be. I think we will have to start small and go from there. I do hope we can keep some of the habits and lessons and good things from this year - an appreciation of time with each other and slowing down every once in awhile.
March 14, 2021
This has been a hard week in some ways because the weather has made it hard to do things outside and also some of my friends haven't wanted to meet up in person because they are scared of Covid. My birthday is coming up at the end of this week and I don't think I will be able to get some friends together. It makes me kind of sad because I was hoping to maybe get a group together for outdoor dining, but doesn't seem like people are up for that. I'm also a bit worried about my social life in general and my dating life in particular. Hasn't been very easy to meet people or socialize and I feel like it's starting to get to me, like I'm wasting precious time in terms of getting on with my life.
February 9, 2021