Gardening has helped to keep me sane. I survived quarantine by seeing change in a sweet potato vine that sprouted, despite 3 months of sameness. I remember Hugh Downs on a tv show” Over Easy” asking elderly why they were growing bonsais when bonsai take decades & even century to grow. “ It gives us hope”, was the answer. Gardening is an act of faith and hope. It can sustain you physically and spiritually-and keeps you out of stores if it is successful. This is my current project. I purchased this Garden Tower as a Christmas gift for myself and have waited months for the weather to allow me to start plants by seed. I was looking at consolidating my garden and not thinking about composting in it when I purchased it. Now I’m excited to trim my vegetables and add to the compost so my worms have food to make compost tea, which gives my plants nutrients. This has been great so far . I’m eating more vegetables, growing future vegetables as well as herbs and flowers & enjoying watching things leaf out. I bought a 2nd tower and spent time setting it up and transplanting basil and poppies into it today. I planted some seeds, too. Growing things is exciting. You get to see and be a part of change. In addition to hope it gives agency and is fun. I can’t wait to make Caprese salad with my own basil and tomatoes. I hope to stay curious and try to make my own ricotta and mozzarella. There is always something new to try.
August 1, 2022
I have been lucky in that I didn't lose my work or get furlough. I work providing legal services to indigent criminal defendants and my workload grew. This has left me in a difficult situation: thankful to have a job while reading of so many people that have lost theirs, but also mentally and physically exhausted and unable to complain because at least I have a job. I'm lucky that have many hobbies and feel comfortable being by myself. Still, I fear the pandemic has made me even more isolated, too comfortable being alone. Right now I'm debating whether I should quit and go back for a post-graduate degree just because I need a break. However, the stability of a paycheck holds me back. My mind is torn.
February 20, 2021