I have been feeling both lighter and darker during this Covid-19 time. Still grieving and feeling the void from my Mom's death on April 28, Not Covid thank God, I have at times found myself going back in time in Slow motion, recalling good times with my family. A lot of childhood images. But sometimes I look ahead and that looks scary...sorta. Well, I will keep living mindfully!
August 10, 2020
I have been lucky in that I didn't lose my work or get furlough. I work providing legal services to indigent criminal defendants and my workload grew. This has left me in a difficult situation: thankful to have a job while reading of so many people that have lost theirs, but also mentally and physically exhausted and unable to complain because at least I have a job. I'm lucky that have many hobbies and feel comfortable being by myself. Still, I fear the pandemic has made me even more isolated, too comfortable being alone. Right now I'm debating whether I should quit and go back for a post-graduate degree just because I need a break. However, the stability of a paycheck holds me back. My mind is torn.
February 20, 2021