I read 'The Cancer Journals' by Audre Lorde earlier in the week and, though she was talking about the individual experience of having breast cancer, her words about how sudden illness impacts all facets of yourself stood out. She describes 'the agony of an involuntary reorganisation of my entire life' following a negative diagnosis. This resonated very much in terms of how many people lost out with lockdown. However, she also says: 'But within those three weeks, I was forced to look upon myself and my living with a harsh and urgent clarity that has left me shaken but still stronger'. I hope this will apply as we recover from Covid-19.
August 4, 2020
The country has started to reopen a bit. But it doesn't really change my life. One of my jobs decided not to rehire me because it does not need part time staff because of the restrictions. It seems really strange that Denmark is opening while the countries around us and the rest of Europe seem to be reentering lockdowns. I worry about that a lot. It makes me feel a lot less safe. And I can't really seem to make sense of it rationally. There'll still be restrictions. We have to carry covid certificates stating whether we have gotten the vaccine, have had covid, or have been tested in the last 72 hours. If we can't live up to any of these requirements, we're still affected by restrictions. So I will still be affected. My life probably won't change because as a student in her mid-twenties, my life doesn't seem to contribute to what is necessary for the economy or society to function. And I know I should be happy that I will not be forced to risk my life on a daily basis, but I also really need to do something, to help with something, to contribute in some way
March 27, 2021