Went for a bike ride trying to be “normal” but there’s an air of grey and sad, like the cold damp of the day, that just sneaks in sits in your bones. As much as things have opened up, and as safe as the vaccine snd booster have made me feel there’s now a variant. And even if the variant hadn’t emerged and we were dealing with the tail end of the pandemic there’s too much hurt and anger and fear these days. We are so divided, there’s so much distrust, that I wonder / worry if it’s possible to dig ourselves out. So as “normal” as things feel there’s an undertow I doubt will ever leave….
December 7, 2021
I get so angry when I see others not wearing their mask when I’m trying to walk with my baby in the stroller. They are usually joggers....the can easily go around but they come straight at us and it’s infuriating. Sometimes I feel like yelling at them but I never do. All this pent up anger builds up and builds up and I have no release. We are very isolated because we want to protect our baby and taking quick walks around my neighborhood is one of the only outings we get. I just want this nightmare to be over already. I wish I could go to bed one night and just wake up to a pandemic-free world. I fear that will never happen. I fear this is a new reality and my baby never had the chance to experience the “old” pandemic free world and possibly never will.
March 27, 2021