I came down with Covid on Monday. I am the first one in my house to get it and so far my husband and kiddo have both stayed healthy, in large part because we have a 3rd floor with a guest room that I have quarantined in and an extra bathroom that I can use exclusively. My husband and I are both fully vaccinated and our kiddo is only 4.5 so not yet old enough for the vaccine. I have thought a lot about the people who don't have space to isolate and who don't have friends to bring them all food and check in on them. We've made it this far. And although it hasn't been great being sick and in isolation, it hasn't been terrible. And I can easily be in isolation. So many people, especially those in minority communities don't have this option. I also have a full acre of land to get out on when I feel better and I back up to 70 acres of farm land, so I can safely get some fresh air too! My husband and kiddo are bonding. I am learning to let go and listen to my body. I am grateful for the support I have and the resources at my finger tips. I am lucky. So very lucky.
December 14, 2021
I had a wonderful conversation with a friend in my building that I think sums up most eloquently what we are experiencing. She quoted Victor Frankel who, referring to the horrors of the concentration camp that he was living through, said that "we must be worthy of this time". Not that this time in any way compares to that horrible experience, but it does put any inclination to complain or be impatient into a whole new category. I hope to be worthy of this time in my life, when the clock is definitely ticking down my days on this earth. I want to be able to say at the end of every day, well, I can feel good about how I spent at least some of this day.
February 25, 2021