I am lucky enough to be living in a house with some of my best friends while doing online classes. It is the only semi normal thing that I've been afforded (or afforded myself) in this pandemic. I bought myself a [Nintendo] switch as a reward for surviving last srmester- my hardest, most depressed I've ever been. I am happy to be able to say I made it through last semester to be able to experience this one where I get to play animal crossing with my roommates.
February 5, 2021
Right now I’m avoiding speaking to my parents. I’m so mad that my mom is not taking her Covid exposure more seriously and doing more to protect her and my dad’s health that I’m worried about what I will say and where the conversation might go. If they get it, and they get really sick, it will take time to make arrangements for someone to take care of my daughter so that I can go (drive 2 days? Risk flying????) visit them or take care of them. Worst case scenario, I don’t want our last words before intubation (or worse.....) to be us yelling at each other. I guess I don’t know if not having any last words at all would make me feel better. I hope I don’t have to find out.
March 5, 2021