I have been feeling both lighter and darker during this Covid-19 time. Still grieving and feeling the void from my Mom's death on April 28, Not Covid thank God, I have at times found myself going back in time in Slow motion, recalling good times with my family. A lot of childhood images. But sometimes I look ahead and that looks scary...sorta. Well, I will keep living mindfully!
August 10, 2020
I'm finding it hard to stay motivated and go on with my days. We are anxiously waiting for our turn to get a vaccine and it is frankly testing the limits of our resilience. I caught myself searching for remote options, such as whether it was possible to get a vaccine out of the country... I was really feeling desperate. It's also difficult to not feel left out when a lot of people around us become eligible or have even had their full two shots... It's been tough. I feel like the mental fatigue and physical tiredness is weighing on me a lot more these days. It feels like we're so close, yet so far. It's very tough to remain strong. I am sensing that my limits are stretching very thin.
April 22, 2021