In the past week, I felt the presence of those who have gone before me - holding me in their firmness and strength. I have been thinking about how they taught me to be who I am and be responsible and steady during this pandemic time. And just knowing that has given me resolve that it is possible, and that I do not need to be swayed by the wind from one day to the next when faced with case numbers rising or irresponsible political management at the national level. I wanted to capture that strength and idea of being a conduit, of being a connected system for myself and my family - even during this time of isolation. A tree with roots in the ground, a leaf with veins stretching out from base to tip, or the veins that course through me.
August 14, 2020
Getting COVID sucked. I got double pneumonia and was out, but even after I recovered from that, I am still dealing with post COVID symptoms, a year later. My private disability claim was denied because they don't think I am actually disabled, but at least my state claim was granted. I'm frustrated that I'm not able to work full time, but I'm grateful to have the means to continue to sustain myself. Thousands of other people aren't as lucky. It has given me an appreciation for what I have - even while I mourn what I have lost. I seem to be getting better slowly, and I've been doing everything I can in order to help myself get better. I'm even paying $1600 out of pocket for a program that I believe may alleviate some of my symptoms. (And again, I'm thankful that I have the means to do so!) It is expensive being sick in America, and the expense just brings more woes. It's the number one cause of bankruptcy. The emotional and financial toll it takes on couples is one of the leading causes of divorce. Since it costs money to get better, people just get sicker and sicker, poorer and poorer. This is why we need Medicare for All in America. Not only is it "the right thing to do," but it is the fiscally responsible choice as a society.
June 25, 2021