Feeling a bit deflated! The holiday is coming, and I’m woefully unprepared. I actually am not planning on doing anything...just another day as in the past it was always a table full of family and friends. My husband considers Christmas a commercial holiday and so planning pizza for two is not real festive. Yet the kindness of new found friends, and old ones popping up may stir some Christmas cheer after all. For most of 40 years I’d head back home and we’d bake hundreds of cookies to share with all those that stopped by. Taking trips to the garage to refill the plate (Wisconsin is good for cold storage) was not a chore but an honor, and a creative challenge. That memory flooded in on one of my few trips to the store and I found myself buying sugar, flour and butter. Let the merriment begin! I’m ready for eggnog spice balls! 12/15 entry
January 2, 2021
I have become much more comfortable with spending time alone. In fact, I am starting to look forward to it. But I'm also learning to really appreciate those people I consider to be true friends. They have been wonderful to have in my life during this time. Unfortunately, though, I have become more wary of other people --- not quite as trusting as I used to be. I don't want to be afraid of others and of life in general. My personal cocoon is cozy but I'm hoping I will be willing to venture out more and expose myself to new adventures --- like I used to do, pre-pandemic.
September 8, 2021