Last night some friends and I went to a film presentation at the planetarium I was planning to wear while in the theater space, more out of courtesy to the others in the audience, who were mostly seniors As we got out of the car and headed toward the building, I started to rummage around in my bag but I couldn't find any, not even any spares For the past two years I've kept at least one or two extras in my day pack, and usually had a few regular face masks in rotation, depending on where I'd be going and what level of protection I needed to display I guess I'd taken them all out for washing or had discarded them after use. I mentally shrugged my shoulders and went inside Face masks weren't required in the theater; about 10% of the audience was wearing them The theater was sold out and it did feel odd to be in an enclosed room, without a face mask, breathing the air with 150 strangers It's going to take some time to feel like I'm not taking a huge risk while around crowds, indoors, without a face mask
June 15, 2023
With this journal topic, I instantly think of my mother. To give context, she is Chinese and immigrated to the US in the 90's, and now works as a software developer. During the pandemic, she is definitely the most stressed out about it, which has been hard for me to understand. Throughout my time at home, there have always been restrictions: not allowed to see anyone outside of the house, wipe everything down with Clorox wipes, grocery shop with gloves on, and the list continues. She works from home and walks outside a lot, but rarely talks to other people outside of our family. I think her stress is fueled by the Chinese news that she reads, where they talk about more things to prevent infection. It's understandable why she is afraid of getting COVID, but I think most of the time she takes it a little too far. Even when I came home from school after getting tested, she was still convinced that somehow I was infected and stayed away from me. I worry about the impact this stress will have on her health, but no matter how many times I talk to her to lower her anxiety, it doesn't seem to work. The rest of my family seems to be less worried about the pandemic, but in our house, we adhere to her guidelines. I believe that COVID restrictions are completely necessary, but there is also a balance to where you still enjoy life and mitigate stress. With the optimistic news of a vaccine down the line, I hope that this will decrease my mother's stress.
December 4, 2020